mood: blah~
As the title say, I'm in dilemma. Why? Its because of my upcoming performance. Oh yeah, I've never write that I play violin right? Well I play violin! Only started a few months ago maybe its already 6 months. I'm a beginner. I was supposed to learn violin when I was 13 but I was enrolled into boarding school so there is noo way I can go home and learn to play violin. So at the age of 19 I've started learning. Though quite old for a person to learn. But age is not a matter if we want to learn something. Alright, go back to the topic. My performance in 5 days and I think I'm not ready yet. My teacher said that I might not be able to perform well for the group. Yes, my performance is in a group. The song is not suitable for me as a beginner. The rest of my group is mostly consists of Grade 1 and Grade 2 students so they are more well trained than I am. They always perform in an orchestra and I'm kinda off the track. So should I quit or not? Because I don't want to ruin the song and I don't want my first performance to be the day I embarrassed myself in front of the crowd. Should I? I've been thinking maybe it will do me good if I quit and learn and practice more before my debut... LOL~ debut... as if I am an artist to begin with... Maybe I should... I guess I just need to ask the person in charge of our group. Though they are younger than me but really good violinists. I have 3 teachers. At first are the 2 temporary teacher who are the one in charge of our group performance and the last one is the leading violinist in an orchestra. His name is Mr. Jong. Actually he ask me who is the one who chose the song, so I said the truth its them. He says 'So lousy...' and I just laughed and asked why, then he said the song is unsuitable for us as a beginner. So let me just explain a little bit about the arrangement. There are 3 groups.
As the title say, I'm in dilemma. Why? Its because of my upcoming performance. Oh yeah, I've never write that I play violin right? Well I play violin! Only started a few months ago maybe its already 6 months. I'm a beginner. I was supposed to learn violin when I was 13 but I was enrolled into boarding school so there is noo way I can go home and learn to play violin. So at the age of 19 I've started learning. Though quite old for a person to learn. But age is not a matter if we want to learn something. Alright, go back to the topic. My performance in 5 days and I think I'm not ready yet. My teacher said that I might not be able to perform well for the group. Yes, my performance is in a group. The song is not suitable for me as a beginner. The rest of my group is mostly consists of Grade 1 and Grade 2 students so they are more well trained than I am. They always perform in an orchestra and I'm kinda off the track. So should I quit or not? Because I don't want to ruin the song and I don't want my first performance to be the day I embarrassed myself in front of the crowd. Should I? I've been thinking maybe it will do me good if I quit and learn and practice more before my debut... LOL~ debut... as if I am an artist to begin with... Maybe I should... I guess I just need to ask the person in charge of our group. Though they are younger than me but really good violinists. I have 3 teachers. At first are the 2 temporary teacher who are the one in charge of our group performance and the last one is the leading violinist in an orchestra. His name is Mr. Jong. Actually he ask me who is the one who chose the song, so I said the truth its them. He says 'So lousy...' and I just laughed and asked why, then he said the song is unsuitable for us as a beginner. So let me just explain a little bit about the arrangement. There are 3 groups.
Violin 1 (this piece is the melody of the song)
Violin 2
Violin 3
Piece = Music sheets
Violin 3
Piece = Music sheets
Usually the hardest piece to play is violin 1 but in my case its violin 2. So I'm in violin 1, there are four of us.
Violin 1 :- 4 persons (including me!)
Violin 2 :- 3 persons
Violin 3 :- 3 persons
Violin 2 :- 3 persons
Violin 3 :- 3 persons
Violin 2 is the hardest piece to play. Violin 1 is the second hardest and Violin 3 is the easiest. So in Violin 2 consist of the Grade 1 and 2 students while in Violin 1, my friend and I are the beginner and another 2 persons is the Grade 2 students. Lastly in Violin 3, all of them are beginners. Its not hard for beginner to play for violin 3 but its hard for beginner to play for violin 1. I guess my friend have no problem playing the piece since she has her father who also involve in music to help her. And I? I have none! I have no one to teach me so I study alone. This is so hard. I don't want them to think I have no commitment towards this. But I'm truly lost here!
Quit or Not?
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