Hot Potato - Confession Lyrics

Korean Lyrics

달이 차고 내 마음도 차고
이대로 담아 두기엔 너무 안타까워 너를 향해 가는데
달은 내게 오라 손짓하고
귓속에 얘길 하네 지금 이 순간이 바로 그 순간이야
제일 마음에 드는 옷을 입고 노란 꽃 한 송이를 손에 들고
널 바라 보다 그만 나도 모르게 웃어버렸네
이게 아닌데 내 마음은 이게 아닌데
널 위해 준비한 오백가지 멋진 말이 남았는데
사랑 한다는 그 흔한 말이 아니야
그 보단 더욱더 로맨틱하고 달콤한 말을 준비했단 말이야
숨이 차고 밤 공기도 차고
두 눈을 감아야만 네 모습이 보여 걸을 수가 없는데
구름 위를 걷는다는 말이 과장이 아니란 걸 알게 됐어
널 알게 된 후부터 나의 모든 건 다 달라졌어
이게 아닌데 내 마음은 이게 아닌데
널 위해 준비한 오백가지 멋진 말이 남았는데
사랑한다는 그 흔한 말이 아니야
그 보단 더욱더 로맨틱하고 달콤한 말을 준비했단 말이야
나를 봐줘요 내 말을 들어봐 줘요
아무리 생각을 하고 또 해도 믿어지지 않을 만큼 사랑해

Romaji

dari chago nae maeumdo chago
idaero dama dugien neomu antakkawo neoreul hyanghae ganeunde
dareun naege ora sonjitago
gwissoge yaegil hane jigeum i sungani baro geu sunganiya
jeil maeume deuneun oseul ipgo noran kkot han songireul sone deulgo
neol bara boda geuman nado moreuge useobeoryeonne
ige aninde nae maeumeun ige aninde
neol wihae junbihan obaekgaji meotjin mari namanneunde
sarang handaneun geu heunhan mari aniya
geu bodan deoukdeo romaentikhago dalkomhan mareul junbihaetdan mariya
sumi chago bam gonggido chago
du nuneul gamayaman ne moseubi boyeo georeul suga eomneunde
gureum wireul geotneundaneun mari gwajangi aniran geol alge dwaesseo
neol alge doen hubuteo naui modeun geon da dallajyeosseo
ige aninde nae maeumeun ige aninde
neol wihae junbihan obaekgaji meotjin mari namanneunde
saranghandaneun geu heunhan mari aniya
geu bodan deoukdeo romaentikhago dalkomhan mareul junbihaetdan mariya
nareul bwajwoyo nae mareul deureobwa jwoyo
amuri saenggageul hago tto haedo mideojiji anheul mankeum saranghae

English Version.

Got no answers, fall in love with questions
The only thing that I know, is that I do not know
I don’t know me anymore

No solutions, fall in love with problems
The only thing I can be, something I don’t wanna be
I’m not what I used to be

Why you get mad, I don’t know anymore
I close myself up and I’m showing the door
I’m not the nice guy you fell head over heels, in love with before

Something’s wrong with me, and you don’t seem to disagree
When I say go away, it’s not really what I wanted, wanted to say
Everything I said, is like I’m lost inside my head
I love you, but it’s true, I don’t know the things that I do
Maybe I am crazy in love

Got no problems, they are your solutions
The only thing I can be, what you don’t want me to be
I’m not what I used to be

Why you get mad, I know baby I see
You close yourself up and the problem is me
I’m not the nice guy you fell head over heels, in love, I’m sorry

Something’s wrong with me, and you don’t seem to disagree
When I say go away, it’s not really what I wanted, wanted to say
Everything I said, is like I’m lost inside my head
I love you, but it’s true, I don’t know the things that I do
Maybe I am crazy in love

Something’s wrong with me, but don’t you know I’m trying to be
Beautiful, wonderful, though I may be crazy baby
Know that I am crazy for you

English Translation

The moon seems cold, so is my heart
To leave it like this..
I feel it could be so regrettable
I find my way towards you

The moon says
Gestures me to come to it
and it whispers to me
right now is...
The moment you wanted

I put on my favorites clothes
I take a single yellow rose in my hand
While I stare at you
Without me knowing, I gave out a laugh

This wasn't it...
This wasn't what my heart planned...
for you...
The things I've prepared
I have over 500 cool things to say...

'I love you' not something so cheesy like that
it is...
more...
I've prepared something romantic and sweet

My breath seems cool
so is the breeze outside...
Only when I close my eyes
I see you...
but I can walk blind folded

The phrase like 'walking on a cloud'
I know it wasn't just a metaphor
The moment I met you
Everything change

Do look at me
Do listen to me
No matter how many times I think about it...
Over and over again to where
I can't believe it exist
That's how much I love you

credit to : http://nonie4u.wordpress.com/

I really love this song!

Sushi oh sushi!

Yummy! Love californian maki!

Truth is....

mood: annoyed...
music : Sugo Shikao - 19sai

I just know the truth a few days ago, to be specific, on Monday. What?! Violin 1 is the hardest to play?! But they told me the hardest is Violin 2! I was shocked to hear that news! How could they ask me, a newbie to play that piece? You know how much I stressed myself out because I can't play that piece?! I know I should be proud because they chose me to play not the more experienced student. But still I wish they can tell me sooner.

Next up, I told the person in charge there is no way I could play the piece well in 5 days so she change me to Violin 2 but then they are too many people playing Violin 2 so she give me the easiest which is Violin 3. Yayy! I was sooo happy that I was released from the dilemma but my happiness left me when I go for practice the next day. She change the song to medley! Last minute!! OMG! I'm stressed out again. Yeah I know the piece is easier this time but I need time to practice.. Even the short song in my music book I needed a long time before I can freely play but to perform a medley in 2 days?! You got to be kidding me. I'm not a fast learner thats for sure and I'm not a genius in music either. The reason I want to play violin is because the love I have for music and I've always wanted to play at least one music instrument. I don't want this passion for music turn out to be the source of stress for me. I know I sound like a whiny spoiled brat right now. But hey at least I don't lease it out on people. I only write and its up to people to read or not. Yeah I think I'm gonna quit. I'm gonna stuck with my opinion: not to let my source of happiness turn out to be source of stress...

Whiny Spoiled Brat!

Performance Dilemma

mood: blah~

As the title say, I'm in dilemma. Why? Its because of my upcoming performance. Oh yeah, I've never write that I play violin right? Well I play violin! Only started a few months ago maybe its already 6 months. I'm a beginner. I was supposed to learn violin when I was 13 but I was enrolled into boarding school so there is noo way I can go home and learn to play violin. So at the age of 19 I've started learning. Though quite old for a person to learn. But age is not a matter if we want to learn something. Alright, go back to the topic. My performance in 5 days and I think I'm not ready yet. My teacher said that I might not be able to perform well for the group. Yes, my performance is in a group. The song is not suitable for me as a beginner. The rest of my group is mostly consists of Grade 1 and Grade 2 students so they are more well trained than I am. They always perform in an orchestra and I'm kinda off the track. So should I quit or not? Because I don't want to ruin the song and I don't want my first performance to be the day I embarrassed myself in front of the crowd. Should I? I've been thinking maybe it will do me good if I quit and learn and practice more before my debut... LOL~ debut... as if I am an artist to begin with... Maybe I should... I guess I just need to ask the person in charge of our group. Though they are younger than me but really good violinists. I have 3 teachers. At first are the 2 temporary teacher who are the one in charge of our group performance and the last one is the leading violinist in an orchestra. His name is Mr. Jong. Actually he ask me who is the one who chose the song, so I said the truth its them. He says 'So lousy...' and I just laughed and asked why, then he said the song is unsuitable for us as a beginner. So let me just explain a little bit about the arrangement. There are 3 groups.

Violin 1 (this piece is the melody of the song)

Violin 2
Violin 3

Piece = Music sheets

Usually the hardest piece to play is violin 1 but in my case its violin 2. So I'm in violin 1, there are four of us.

Violin 1 :- 4 persons (including me!)
Violin 2 :- 3 persons
Violin 3 :- 3 persons

Violin 2 is the hardest piece to play. Violin 1 is the second hardest and Violin 3 is the easiest. So in Violin 2 consist of the Grade 1 and 2 students while in Violin 1, my friend and I are the beginner and another 2 persons is the Grade 2 students. Lastly in Violin 3, all of them are beginners. Its not hard for beginner to play for violin 3 but its hard for beginner to play for violin 1. I guess my friend have no problem playing the piece since she has her father who also involve in music to help her. And I? I have none! I have no one to teach me so I study alone. This is so hard. I don't want them to think I have no commitment towards this. But I'm truly lost here!

Quit or Not?

I'm feeling really good~~

mood: XD

Ok after writing so much hate-ness last time, I'm feeling quite good. As people say, talking to someone about your problem relieve a lil bit of your stress, although in my case, I wrote not talk. First thing in mind is I wanted to apologize for the rudeness last time. Well what can you expect from a cranky person. So I'm sorry. Though I should have not resolved to throwing such crude words. Its my nature to get real mad and then back to normal. I'm quite easy to forgive and forget. I am not a person who can really hate a person for a long time. But still I've lay all the problems on the table. I'm being honest and yeah, truth hurts... I know that there's a zero or maybe 0.01% people will read it that's why I treat this blog as my personal but public diary. That's all I'm gonna say... So forgive all my cruelty, rudeness, unladylike and etc....

If you make a mistake... APOLOGIZE! Its not that hard...

Hate! Cautions! Crude words...

author: the only me..

mood: cranky!

Call me a hater SO WHAT?! Since I don't have any say in this or maybe I have but because there is still my respect towards elders so I just SHUT UP! Yep, I'm mad right now. Tell me, this one person invite children for a sleepover but why the hell are they in my house right now?! Wait. Who invite them again? Oh its you... and why are they here? Oh right! Cause you just throw them here. WTH! If you really want to organise for a sleepover so take them to your house and don't just simply hand over your responsibility to take care of them during sleepover to us while saying our house is better or more comfy for them. Do you think I am proud or simply agree to your comment?! Hell no! *Oh my god! I'm not suppose to do this but I'm really mad right now. *Saying you pity those children cause of their parents divorce and let them sleep, eat, play and practically treat them like your child! But guess what, what about their parents responsibility?! You practically say 'Hey, let me take care of your children and you can let your responsibility slip away'. Ok maybe I'm exaggerate stuff they may still concern of their child but I still have good points in this matter. The parents will think 'Oh the blablabla are taking care of my children, I have time for myself now' or 'My children are in good hand'. Yeah, your children are in good hand but still your not suppose to do this!!! You already screw your marriage now you want to abandon your child?! I'm sorry for using the word abandon but in my point of view, it looks like abandon to me. Say like, we go for outing and we gladly bring you to a eatery and here they are eating like they have not eaten for a week. Okay the sight amused me because I never see a person finish a plate of food in less than 5 minutes. Not only that, they compete and never concern others aka the older one. They seem like only care for themselves. I'm sorry for thinking this, but don't your parents serve food for you? And for the record, my house is not a transit for everything! I love they come to my house and spend quality time with us but I don't like it if they seem to think every occasions is suppose to be at my house! Birthday party, BBQ, anniversary and etc.... darling my house is not a hotel where you can come and just organise whatever party you want!! I want my privacy please! And then who is the one end up doing the cleaning? Yes my mom and my grandma! And who will hear all the ranting about the house is messy and all? Yes I also make mess but that's another case. I mean the mess they done when they here in my house. Who? Yes that's me and my brothers n yeah my father... But I get the worse because whenever the ranting starts, I am there to take the blow. And why do you think I hate all the stuff here? Yup cause in the end its me and others who need to listen to all the ranting about bills n blablabla... Why don't you consider our feelings and the burden? I hate it when my mother complain about things that she shouldn't be concern on... That is not your problem to think. Why do you keep butting on people's problem?! I know they are relative but I still hate it!! My mom is the person who concern about others even though her exterior give out the serious aura and when she's in bad mood this will affect all of us!

I hate because they seem to be here because of PlayStation. *yeah game.. what?! my house is the Game Arcade now?!*
I hate because they stole attention of my mom and I feel neglected.
I hate because they take advantage of my mom's concern.
I hate because they just simply put all the responsibility to the members of our house.

I HATE BECAUSE I HATE THE WAY THEY MAKE ME HATE ALL THIS!!!

Forgive me God for I have sinned...